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Friday, June 28, 2013


Lights have flickered and come back on after nine years

Monday, June 24, 2013

From the film Play it Again Sam by Woody Allen and Amanda Knox

Humphry Bogart (impersonator): "The only bad thing is if she turns out to be a virgin, or a cop."
Woody Allen: "With my luck she'll be both."

I am reading Amanda Knox's memoir  Waiting to be Heard it's amazing! This is some story.....the stuff of B horror films, the kind you watch on Halloween. But of course this was real. Italy looks beautiful I was only there briefly. This story reads ....her trial.....like something out of the Middle Ages.....Amanda was actually driven through a crowd in what looked like a cage .....though it was a car.  She and Raffeale Sollicito were in NYC......must have been for an interview...my heart goes out to the Kerchers for their loss. Still these kids didn't do it. The prosecution spun this absurd ridiculous and untrue story about a wild sex orgy and turned Knox into the Scarlet Killer.....which she wasn't. That .....this could have been me or anybody....

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Amanda Knox

I am really fascinated by this. A lot of elements. Halloween All Souls Day killing. Mignini (sp cq) said this murder was Satanic and I found out the Satanic Panic has resurged in Italy. Well the SP has been found to be fiction and people were wrongly accused of stuff they didn't do. Point number one. Most of the ones sent to jail were not Satanists. Halloween and All Saints Day and All Souls Day are Christian holidays, formerly pagan, and have nothing to do with Satanism which is its own religion. AK .and RS are not Satanists never professed to be as far as I know they are both Christian.
Two: Meredith Kercher's "friends" first of all left her alone and vulnerable in an area with a history of crime and thugs running rampant it seems. What kind of people were hanging around her? Theres something really not right here. Her "friends" who claim to be so concerned for her skip town as soon as she is killed and do nothing to help with the investigation and refuse to speak to the police. Is that what someone who cares about someone does? Ditto for her roommates. They trash talk AK who DID stay and try to help, then took the rap for it, completely wrongly, losing her freedom .....but what did they do to help? Who are they to blame anyone? Three. After the fact: and I know having traveled you domt think about these things: there was apparently inadequate security in that place. A disaster for young women living alone and far more if its one alone. When I went to London we were not in a great neighborhood and security was airtight. I got in trouble when . My bag was stolen and keys were in it. But we were in a dorm. Basically my point is they were in an unsafe place with inadequate protection or security which a friend . Once advised me should always be first priority when moving to a new place. There . Is a reason why floor washing for protection is so widespread in hoodoo. There are bad folk out there. My friend who lived alone was raped even someone crawled through her window. Some of these creeps stalk . People and stake them out. Wait til they are out, or alone. It.....especially because I grew up in the city is beyond me why the . People renting this place did not make it safer against intruders like Rudy Guede. Why in short were they living in an unsecure place . In a bad neighborhood with dangerous people running around? If he was selling them drugs it makws no sense to kill your customers unless she owed him money but after a week? Probably he figured MK had money and he said they had a date (if true.....I can't help wonder was she out of her mind but I can't say for sure). After smashing the window (and why didnt she call the cops) she must have screamed God knows I would have someone MUST have heard her. They were allegedly in a crowded town. Weren't there other people living there? Didn't they hear the window break?  She must have been screaming her head off why did no one hear her especially during a struggle.
Unless he covered her mouth. But apparently they were running around. Or he held her down on the bed raped and stabbed her covering her mouth in which case . He is the worst slime alive. I am against the death penalty but if he did that I wouldnt feel sorry for him. If . It was consensual sex he wouldn't. Have broken the window. . Some said AK and RS broke the window to make . It look like a break . In.....but depending where the glass fell if . Out the break . Occured from . Oitside . If . In inside......they'd have had to go out and smash the window themselves at nighttime that's pretty far fetched. What would be thwir motive for . Killing her knowing they would lose their freedom this while they were in school anything is . Possible but thats improbable. Now, why were their phones off unless battery ran out but how did the . Pro KNOW their . Phones were off. That is one thing fishy I hate tosay cuz I am . On their side but thats how yoyr location cant be tracked. Did they take out the batteries on their phones? Someone who must have heard the glass break.

Friday, June 14, 2013

Aileen Wuornos

Watch "Aileen Wuornos Part 1 of 6" on YouTube
Yes I am watching many interviews with female prisoners and serial killers. Of course there is no excuse for cold blooded murder ("you have a right not to be killed/murder is a crime/unless it was done/by a policeman" The Clash) and..... yes those who are.guilty made their own choices BUT it also takes a village.....Wournos wow .....I never knew much about her. She is from Michigan I have tons of family there.....these are the people next door well I learned that from personal experience.....but it still is hard to sink in. These aren't deviants or lowlifes but regular people......lots of people go through bad stuff and don't go on to become killers maybe there is no way to predict. Some killers have "normal" childhoods I mean on it goes.....

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Plan B victory

Although it doesn't solve all our problems. it will prevent.some many disasters.......I have heard people say that location is irrelevant that one should find the  peace in themselves or something.....but it does matter. For all its problems I am proud of.the fact that I live in New York City where I can get this. There is a clinic that will give out the pill for free. Not perfect but an advantage. This pill has been proven  safe and has been sold over the counter all over the world to women and girls of all ages for a decade now.

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horrors saw that name again

I know what you are probably thinking but her name is always a bad sign.....something bad always happens when I see her name. Maybe it's in my mind but I have reason to believe validly that this person has ill intent toward me. I saw that horrible name which I will never get used to which makes me sick which I can't understand why anyone would name their kid that when I see that name the scab is ripped off that deep wound she inflicted I see feel relive all the pain she caused me and that name was next to that of my ex. I am OVER him I don't care anymore I want both of them gone forever from my life..I am wAtching Law and Order they just. Said pluck him out of your daughter's life like a bad tooth. May she and all reminders of her be that.....

Sunday, June 09, 2013

More on Jodi Arias

I had to retype this as my software crashed.....I watched a French film by Catherine Briellat I think thats how you spell her name....about two high school age sisters, one is overweight and awkward and the other is very beautiful.The same scenario I just talked about.....the pretty girl is dating a guy who convinces her to let him fuck her in the.ass because the other way is wrong or something.....that if she didn't let him he would be forced to look elsewhere.....and so she lets him. I have had some guys pressure me to stuff like that but I never did. Something must have saved me.....I don't know what. I am grateful to have missed, however narrowly, the worst. Anyway.

More on Jodi Arias.....

Recently, and this isn't the first time..........I turned down this guys invitation for me to come to his house so he could "face fuck" me.....according to this that's not sinning....

Saturday, June 08, 2013

Jodi Arias

Mornings after doing my routine I have breakfast or  coffee and watch stuff like this on youtube. Pretty fascinating though I don't know what she was thinking. If you stab someone, let alone 30 something times, you are likely to go to jail even if it's self defense. This guy sounded like a.....I edited this I dont know him of course..... it's obviously not ok to stab someone whether or not it was that he was attacking her or she was mad that he had another girlfriend...... . He apparently.....just now this is sinking in.....told her that for religious reasons.....that he couldn't have sex with her (vaginally that is) until they were married but if they did it anally or orally it wasn't sex' or not sinning or something...... and it was ok.  She said anal sex hurt but why did she go along with it to begin with? A person is really going to believe that nonsense? But I feel a real empathy with her and the death penalty is gruesome and horrible I agree .....it is painful to watch. But if like Jodi said the murder was not premeditated and she stabbed
him after being attacked......people have done worse things and not gone to jail. I read stories in her case and also in the Amanda Knox story and for that matter the Manson murders of witness tampering, information withheld.....threats.....horrifying if true. Power corrupts?

Sylvia Plath, blogging

"This holocaust I walk in/o golden child the world will kill and eat"

I watched part of Oliver Stone's "Untold History of the United States" he said something about the misperception, something like that, that the US won World War II. ? Not sure if I got that right. .....Friedan wrote about "comfortable concentration camps".....my recollection of the fifties....well I wasn't born...but what my mom tells me.....my grandmother had been a beautiful and brilliant woman, fond of literature and not of housework. probably mg grandfather did all the housework as he was OCD and a neatness freak. I read something by this guy who said he was one as well. You don't realize how you are reliving.....I don't think my grandmother was the fifties Doris Day heroine you always read about. They, and my mother as a kid, moved around all the time.....

Tuesday, June 04, 2013

Susan Atkins

Watch "Part 3 Susan Atkins 1993 Parole Hearing California Prison Charles MANSON Family" on YouTube
From her perspective. Very different from that of the prosecution.......judge for yourself

New vlog

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Hey sorry for the long absence. Dealing with some terribly strenuous stuff. Hopefully solved......nearly.