oh lovelies

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Susan Atkins (1976) Interview-Part 1

one amazing story these girls are .....i know what people will think. but they're not the people they are depicted as in the press and media......their story is one of survival of total hell. NOT to diminish the gravity of the crimes or to not sympathize with those killed. But she and Leslie, Pat I don't know about, really didn't kill anyone. They shouldn't have been where they were for so long.....


by my own doing I woke up and drank 2 liters of mountain dew and couldn't resist, my sweet tooth what it is....the $1.09 special of movie-sized junior mints at Wallgreens, and then my favorite, candy corn, albeit out of season. 

some good things happened, some horrible things happened. 
So now the sugar is buzzing in my head. But boy did I miss it for 2 days. 

I woke up and started making a list. Copying drafts of other lists. These things are daunting. What do I want? What do I want to do? Me being the ADD case of the universe listed 1,000 things in about ten minutes....then AAGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!! Need to do this and this and this and this and this and this

I had this dream that a friend was meeting me for a party in a school auditorium. It was all grey though. I dream about my high school a lot, except that it's empty and only security guards are there.

So high on my TO DO priorities:

getting on a tv series 
yoga blog 
eye doctor 
apt search and find 
dance pole 

Speaking of which, I ran yesterday up to harlem. Had to go up there for something so I figured I'd kill two birds with one stone. Took me 45 minutes to get up to 116th st. It's so nice up there! Being up there really lifts my spirits. There's Whole Foods, which I actually like a lot. They have everything, man. Really nice oils and candles.....I do go in for all that hippie New Age stuff. They...the Starbucks was sampling this awesome like cappuccino chocolate rock candy the best whoever invented that I love you. Then I went into Sephora......I think this was after I discovered this playground which had, incidentally, a pole. I started kind of practicing on it. I did my dance exercises....why I am so stiff always I don't know. By the time I was done, my legs were shooting fatigue. My hands, fingernails....all of me was filthy. I went into Whole Foods then, used the bathroom where I washed my hands and armpits. Then I went into Sephora and put this exquisite hand scrub, like peach scented, on my hands for my nails. Painted my nails in their Mermaid color. They looked great on me! Then used some of their Murad face wash. Left. Somehow walked back to my gym where I showered. I went to my school library....put my head down for a nap and woke up several hours later........I was that tired. I had no energy to perform that night.
All because the other thing that may have killed me. But I'm still too young to die. Especially over people who don't matter, who won't in the end. So I have to dig my way out of a grave. And I did.
I remembered this dance class I took in school....the teacher, an older female, was telling the boys to get a dance belt said it would "hold them like steel."

Friday, June 24, 2011

Ali G In Da House Whole Movie (English) Part 1 HD

I know this is a bootlegged copy but if I can find the film on netflix what have you....this is so brilliant I watch this whenever I need comic relief....fucking awesome. so go out or online and get the film!

Sunday, June 19, 2011


I wrote "tart" first Freudian slip? Got seven of swords reversed. Interpretations here and here

Happy Father's Day

Dad we all miss you! Love always

Saturday, June 18, 2011

KLF - The Rites Of Mu

God this is genius....even if a somewhat 2001 rip off.....you don't have to be "high" to get it all but maybe meditating.....

Simple Minds - Alive And Kicking

Red hot ..... This band was and is the bestest of the the bestest...... it had been a while since I'd thought of them or listened to them but.....well....hm. One thing led to another to this again.....and well. There's more. A lot.

Sunday, June 12, 2011


haven't been home in a couple days. slept at a friend's place on the ues...yorktown. this apartment is so quiet and .....man how do I describe it? almost feel like I'm on a submarine when I'm in there. wood beams on the ceiling. He has a photo of a singer named Nick Drake, who had committed suicide some time in the 60s. Swords and knives on the wall. My dad also had a sword on his, in a basement of the place he lived in in Chicago.

I had half a glass of wine and just plopped down. The dreams I was having! My God. First that I was in the Hamptons, at Madonna's make-shift house while she waits for a house. She had this kind of magical swimming pool. It was like two big rooms, in a house. Then her new one. Like white and flat. 

Then I was with my mother and sister. My sister was eating a tuna sandwich and my mother was asking her to do something she kept refusing. Someone said the Bush Administration made you this way. I started eating the tuna even though I hate that stuff, and all fish. Then I went out to get Indian food. I had a boyfriend in the dream.....(?) and was trying to communicate something....quirreling.....some kind of room with a cot in it. It just went on like that.....

Friday, June 10, 2011

audition and pix

the pictures came out great and so is the color! I was one of the last to audition, and did a monologue of the fool in king lear. these other actresses auditioning were great and all in all it was quite inspiring

Sunday, June 05, 2011

I was really bummed thinking I'd missed an audition but.....turns out I didn't! great.....I'd been through the hell of mid-town Manhattan looking for a non-existent printing place that turned out wasn't open.....all this crap. But I found a place that is and auditioning tomorrow so bless....!

Saturday, June 04, 2011

My Cat Sleeps Like A Human!

OK for some lighter material.....watching a film about evolution led me to cat eating with fork (that is history catstory right there) to this......!

Friday, June 03, 2011

pre nup

I read that [name withheld, female] is making a pre nup with [name withheld, male].....with a cheating clause in it. He is protesting that. Kind of makes you think.

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

All work and no play...(german version)

Wow I actually found this on YouTube. There was also an Italian and French version, maybe Spanish? Was du heute kannst besorgen, das verschiebe nicht auf morgen. Translates into English, what you can do today don't leave for tomorrow. Stop procrastinating. This was associated with St. Expedite as well as the European, what do I say, conquest to convert everyone to Christianity before they are killed. This must have had more resonance with European audiences than American Indian references like you see in the American. I studied a little German. Interesting how viewing this in another language makes it seem like a different film. Shelley Duvall's awesome in this.

dark moon and 13 13 13 13

that explains it . today I was in a horrific mood and it's about a billion degrees out. This is the opposite of the wintertime. Walking around in an oven outside looking for this stupid gym. I had to go back and check my map. it's 4th ave between 12th and 13th and address is 113. Do the math. 13 13 13 13. That number has huge significance in my life; if ever there was an explanation this is it! There's that Pussycat Dolls song "When I Grow Up (I wanna be famous)" and the line "be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it....." kind of chilling in a pop song. I KNOW it's not the first time that expression was used. But now I understand the meaning. You want something (or someone) SO badly then you get them....I wanted summer and now I have a roasting grill. It's really crazy out there.

That explains me too.