oh lovelies

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Laurie Who's the Boogeyman?

Who indeed? Watching horror films love Halloween, and the 1978 film. Wish I could still watch in......anyway. Voodoo dolls.....the name Laura keeps coming up. Again. Just watched the original House on Haunted Hill.....

Sunday, October 26, 2014

By order of the prophet

"They banned that boogie sound /degenerate the faithful....." the Clash

Hauling ass to work.....life was easier living in Manhattan. But  I got there and it's cool. It's 4:24 am super tired but super grateful. The spirits brought "wrong guy wrong situation" say the lyrics on the radio.....me to the people I was with and.....well ?

Saturday, October 25, 2014

Bright lights big alien beach

Something weird haunted sci fi vibe here. A friend was telling me alien stories, a couple actually. Just ran 55 mins in my socks. I've never been to Eastern Europe (unless you count East Berlin) but this feels like I see in pictures or like people say: kind of stark and bleak. But not in a bad way. I like the culture the people seem pretty cool, pretty pretty.

Wednesday, October 22, 2014


A part of me is sad I did not go to new orleans another is devastated because I was betrayed by someone Im close to. I cannot reconcile this monster I read about in the press with the person I know. I will always miss the latter. It hurts but life goes on. Had dreams of flying into a mansion going from room to room. Something is going on and all is not what it seems.

Monday, October 20, 2014

Chuck Berry - Maybellene

I read he was a major influence on the Clash one of my favorite bands.....this is so fascinating to me.......totally happy people brought this stuff back!

More Than Teen Spirit

wow wow boy personal experience......back when I was a kid.......anyway, fascinating stuff. so much that you don't see don't hear doesn't mean not there

just found out

There is someone who did target me specifically to cause problems between me and the people I live with, as well as just.....to hurt me. This is no joke.Turns out I was right. Someone was jealous or threatened or what have you.....jealous of my relationships. This was done to me willfully and maliciously. I really have never done anything to anyone to deserve this, ever. I may have done stupid things or behaved badly but I never set out to hurt anyone at least never unprovoked. I am not that kind of person. But those of that kind do exist ......Britney Spears song "Rebellion" was constantly going in my head "Be wary of others/the ones closest to you/the poison they feed you/and the voodoo they do......" Someone else has been working the evil juju sista it wasn't me.....sincerely.....


like this I have a blinding headache like I'm getting tasered in the head. I was brutally, sadistically tortured and mocked and, honestly, I don't know how it is I'm still breathing and out in the world, but here I am. I was shaken up in every direction and facing death and well, not crazy but um, can't say I was totally sane, either. Maybe the fact that I didn't put on a blue wig is what let me off the hook. However, I was provoked. I have that thing about me that attracts certain people, I don't have to "do" anything to get attention I'm not the hottest, the best dressed, the weirdest what have you but I guess not willingly I suck energy in. I don't mean to. I don't understand why I am a target. I never did.

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

And she knew

As she loved lived she loved she needed he somehow had the power but was afraid of hers afraid of hers but she knew she knew.......with the waves withe water she will come back.....take the leap and have faith.....that to the right thing you will be taken.....

Thursday, October 09, 2014

Boy the French have come a long way

As per rock music .....

Oils I ordered online.....work wonders for my hair which is very fine and wiry.....coconut, ylang ylang, vitamin e a bunch of great stuff. No parabens. Coconut is amazing in general.....life. ......I'm alive. As yet still.....

Vitalic - My friend Dario: http://youtu.be/_3EXHdT8DKM

Sunday, October 05, 2014

"Bullet Bra"

This is a great blog, from Oz I think.....


Wow amazing essay


Manhattan indigenous

Kitty kat.....aww

gulf war.......91

  underground dance scene largely consisted of black and latino youth, many gay and lesbian. or else female.......you know disenfranchised people or at least one example....... they liked to boogie down on occasion......one deals with pain in their own way, yes.

boy. some of these images I can't.........they speak for themselves

Second Wave Feminism.......

Andrea Dworkin, Betty Friedan and others wrote about its birth.....due to the hypocrisy (at times) and double standards in the hippie movement.....how groovy is groovy.....think about it.....beneath the peaceful guitar strumming beading exterior......again, this wasn't all the time but unfortunately it was enough to cause alarm that brought forward a new society.....HE was talking.......

Road Trip Salmon Song:


"I thought every German was you, and the language obscene" Sylvia Plath

 "If I can't dance, I don't want your revolution." Emma Goldman

Missing Foundation Party's Over

Betty Friedan had written in a book I'd read The Feminine Mystique that.....in a chapter titled "The Comfortable Concentration Camp" that people being sent to the gas chambers.....one had been a dancer, who did a small dance before being shot. This as told by Bruno Bettleheim. That that was some kind of liberating moment......he'd written that in such extreme conditions those being imprisoned turned on each other rather than those imprisoning them. "Work for your freedom" they'd been told. But the work was drudgery and endless.....you know.....that nothing new. Always there'd been a slave class. Truthfully dance is damn hard work. It's aching, huffing puffing, so excruciating,  and so tiring just no words can describe.....

Yankee detectives
Are always on the TV
'Cos killers in America
Work seven days a week

Never mind the stars and stripes
Let's print the Watergate Tapes
I'll salute the New Wave
And I hope nobody escapes--The Clash

As a teenager, I may have come under the radar of Russian espionage. No, no joke. You don't know.......most people don't even know the half of the half of the beginning.......

When my father came here for a visit......he ........ he'd lived in Chicago (near the Belmont area, that being kind of like the East Village of that city) and Indianapolis, his home town, is a major American city also; not a naive person.  But when we were in a cab on St. Marks with my mom he said it looked like they'd opened up an insane asylum. I am remembering a quote from Missing that Thomkins Sq Park is built on sacred American Indian burial ground thus......explains all the jagged dissonant insanity one always finds there still you know hasn't really gone away......one night I dreamt of a giant fire in that park. Turns out Missing Foundation had had a concert there where they had set a fire.....there was so much random and inexplicable violence both in Chicago and NYC and there seemed a peculiarly sinister element in Chicago maybe because it's a city of such extremes, of weather and other stuff.

Nazis invented (ta-tum! get ready for this one:) 
"Panzer Schokolade" 
i.e. our friend Crystal Meth......Hitler himself.....and I really hate writing on this subject......was a daily injector. Crazy, right? During fascist times seems (to me, though I'm just one person) one parties harder? And the music is better. Why is that? My friend said it's because people pour their pain and struggles into art......

Blazing Saddles   ( link not clear but just click.....)

LA Style

Culture Beat

from the 80's really on a roll

Lil Louie French Kiss  

I read, I think, an interview with David Geffen where he was asked why during Republican presidencies the music is better and he said something along the lines of if Pat Buchanan were elected President the world may suck but the parties would be great, or something like that.....or the music would be great.....around the time of this video the American military was bombing Iraq to dust and anyone-who-may-potentially-have -known-anyone's phone was tapped.....I know this personally. 
 The Berlin Wall (Berliner Mauer) had been torn down but that made no sense to me. A wall in the city and, so what.......? I couldn't fathom. Just couldn't. Except in some ways my experience was similar. Exiled to Siberia? Where was that?

People were simply dying, really being killed, i.e. as in cold blooded murder, by the minute, by the hour.............  Yeah, yeah, we live in a sick world. Human sacrifice? For what?  The levels of which are beyond what one can wrap one's brain around. Around this time, I returned to NYC. Because truth be told I was kind of obsessed with a guy. Also, really, I missed NYC and my life and friends, though Chicago is great and I loved my Dad and all but still......yet Chicago radio is light years superior to NY. All ironies really.
My friend once said to me (the same one I'd been obsessed with, this maybe due to no accident)  very emphatically: "YOU stood out." I don't try to. I really don't. I am a private person but I was sixteen and......so many times I ......it was a time when I felt like I was confronting Death in the face. I could have been Jennifer Moore. One occasion I got into an argument with my mother and walked out......ended up on the LES near what was a junkie squat damn scary. A guy was with me, fortunately.......because when this one approached us, a man with blood dripping from his nose......eyes glazed and boggled..... I mean straight out of a horror film you know......"You came here to shoot up?" No. Drugs had not agreed with me when I'd tried them and all they had to do was stab us with one of those needles (AIDS.....)  no need for any real assault......thinking of this stuff how did I survive? I really......I really.......well, who knows. 

It's all subjective the music better/worse what's great/what sucks you know everyone is different. These are merely my opinions. But I just feel in times of intense political oppression the music improves and gets more intense a teacher once said about the roaring 20s......consensus was we could all die any day so party it up. I mean.....? well.......

Friday, October 03, 2014

Vlogging@ whole foods

Vlogging@ whole foods 2: http://youtu.be/3fFRdtlIAlI

Vlogging at whole foods

Vlogging@ whole foods 2: http://youtu.be/3fFRdtlIAlI
Looks like someone beat me to it but I had a harrowing 48 hours like being in a torture device I went to wf to .....pull myself together.....I got emotional.....I had a horrid meltdown today screamed at these random people walking by and a girl who barged into me
These people were Indian oh God it was so oh God I'm horrible but I was so devastated over what happened and  so hurt and upset for my friends and so

Thursday, October 02, 2014

Wednesday, October 01, 2014

Video I did while uptown

Strange noises: http://youtu.be/gnhgbnq76BE

About 7 months ago.....soon before leaving. Pretty decent tho.....