OK. I decided to separate this paragraph because it's mixed up with what's below; though the theme is still death. Two different ways. It's a dark day; don't want to think about it it's a horrible and morbid topic. Obviously. I understand the need to commemorate. I myself don't want to participate; I need to step away from this. For my own reasons. I can only say my heart goes out to all the victims and of course it never should have happened. My point is, perhaps it's this day combined with the start of the waning moon (I can hear it now; pagan! Wiccan!) plus a rather unpleasant incident this morning that had me thinking on this stuff. I mean what I wrote about below.