Trying, can't fault me for that! :-) to run or at least keep moving in this weather.....my body hurts as does my head I'm riding the train home from work but I hope the beach will be pretty in the snow. In Carroll Gardens it's beautiful. If cold and my toes wet and frozen.
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Who had power over my life was a kid, maybe younger than me, fairly cute.....I was rattled to the core and thoroughly humiliated. I thought......what had I thought? I was across the ocean not a huge distance and everyone spoke English but it was another world and a hostile one.....everyone mistrustful a polite word is "repressed" stoplights that looked and sounded like Fisher Price toys the stuff we played with as children and all the streets circular not up and down making me feel like I was perpetually walking sideways. I couldn't get used to white buildings either. Being robbed, sexually harassed and now held hostage.....the cops thinking it was a kidnapping my father on the phone in Indiana otherwise I may not have gotten out of there. Not to mention feeling guilty and like I'd.....well I did screw up there was no denying it. It should have been this should have been that but this is what was. People saying, if this was......? The situation was not so dire, this could have been Pakistan, or Iraq, you could have been killed.....it could have been worse but this is where I was......or was it the weather? It was August 13 and right around this time the US Embassy in Kenya was being blown up and people were dying.
Did it matter, really, where I was? But the hardest burden was yes that I felt guilty that I had somehow let people down thinking I was in love with this guy in NY, a Colombian. Next thing I knew, or rather didn't know.....I was famous. It was terrifying, and awkward. Thinking, what had I been thinking? Now there was.....I had to remove myself from all that it was the only way I could stay sane.....was to not be maybe....."When we kissed I sucked his soul into me like a tongue. She was not mad yet she saw with the piercing eyes of madness....." Blonde by JCO
That was horrendous but great. Talk about challenge.....I ran on the beach which was frozen over the waves jumping up.and out at me. Water hitting my shoe. Everything.....me my mind my body just hurting hurting. I have been on a very short fuse and last night I cracked under pressure I.admit. So the beach is very icy.and you have to watch your step but it's pretty. This hail must.....well.....
I have to say this one jumped out at me.
http://www.usatoday.com/story/news/nation-now/2015/02/08/teen-killed-classmate-uploaded-selfie-snap-chat/23091563/
So much activity and well.....it's pretty overwhelming. I feel incredibly jarred but here I am here I go. I watched a video of Rod Serling pitching Twilight Zone it's truly, he is was rather truly brilliant. Initially the show was even creepier. I took a ton of photos over the past few months which I'll upload a few of them.....I absolutely love these birds! I feed them pretty frequently bread and stuff mostly. They are quite friendly and sociable and they all know me by now amd fly in, all I imagine there are at least 100 of them..... I watched a discussion on civil disobedience so yes anyone dare tell me not to.....I'm going to feed the fucking birds they have as much right to live as anybody. So far, no one has. They stand in formation by the water not sure how to explain this I suppose they sense the water coming in or.....?
I put all the flowers in the ocean after they dried I mean I wasn't sure what else to do with them.....I don't want to put them in the garbage and there is no where else really.....I figure they just dissolve naturally in the water.
A lot of sad news about people and animals departing this world in the past few months.....but on the reverse side a friend of mine just gave birth and I saw a darling male kitten just now.....some pleasant is such a nice thing! My best hopes for these little guys.....and well all of them.....
I don't know much about St. Brigid of Kildare and have only heard of Imbolc when I got on Enchantments' mailing list. All I know is it's a time honored custom to clean up the house and leave food at the doorstep as an offering. I had some strawberries and bananas took them to the beach and fed them to the seagulls (clarification: this was about something similar but not the same. I am not familiar with this saint and was not raised in this tradition; but I did discover it today....... ) but yes I take food to the seagulls all the time......I mean, wasn't quite sure how to do this. I poured some sugar in the tub when I took a bath I often use sugar, cinnamon (not too.much or it'll burn) honey..... If I'd left them on the steps someone would have stepped on or tripped on them..... and with the snow it'd have been a mess. The beach is quite pretty. I love it really. There's a popular Irish dish called Colcanna which I've never heard of either for all I am Irish descent.....? Totally gotta get up to speed on this. My.finger and ear are healing gradually. I've been taking a lot of Tylenol.....ha I should get some $ for that plug. Right now tbh I need that. On the up side my stuff has arrived from the hippie store in Northern California......I won Cleo May oil from Lucky Mojo. Yee! But that plus full moon plus the windows of the.front door were spooking me I mean I just felt a .......something??????? ..... This annoying woman who lives here unfortunately went crazy and started screaming at 3am I was furious oh yes maybe a .....but it's futile to try argue with someone like that. At the end of the day I have better things to do. This storm, however, has caused a great deal of stress pretty though it is.....I do love the beach. I did drop a bunch of roses in the ocean. And off they go........To?
I've also been watching Fargo and I am so obsessed with that film. I was.advised.....well this I will have to go into elsewhere.
