California 70s rock

Been really getting into this......I would have fit right  in in this era.....it's been so long since I've been West I've encountered so much great stuff from there

for further description

these three individuals are threatened by any artistic projects I do or by, frankly, my genius. I know it's self-serving to say that but that's simply what is happening. That's simply how it is.....and they intrude on my life whenever I embark on a new project. Boy, that gets to her.......my brilliance and success. She did everything possible to block it and she is blocking human progress and evolution, not just mine but everyone's. She is truly a cancer, and that's one of the worst things anybody can ever do. Ditto for the other two. I was .......yeah I was stupid indeed. I'm not anymore. She stood in the way of my relationship..... She's been an annoyance par none to countless people. She carries toxicity and poison everywhere she goes and irradiates everything she touches. I want her gone. GONE.

Stalkers

The main three are at it again. This after my repeated demands that they stay away. I repeat: 


STAY AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 


They tried to send me an anonymous friend request I'm not stupid I know what's going on. I can see dating him was one of my worst mistakes and that, no, I was not sane. She is an evil, wicked monster a horror to the human race. I'm so mad at him for being tied to her, keeping ties, and bringing this entity into my life ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!




STAY AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Again, someone has repeatedly told you to stay away, told everyone she knows about her problem with you, spoken out against you online, yes, and on the internet, with support of people around the world, .............. and perpetrator/defendant/respondent/stalker pick your description they all apply, has been told by him countless times that it's over, yet she continues to prey upon me and I don't give a shit what their relationship is. He is an asshole, to put it mildly, and I really, really fucked up dating him. Good riddance!Get out of my life forever and don't come near me and  .......What a horrible human being. I mean it, to psycho-stalker stay the hell away!

St. Nicholas.....

I've read that who is now referred to as Santa Claus, or Saint Nicholas, or Saint Nick.....was one associated with gift giving and prostitution, as he was alleged to have dropped gold down the chimney to these girls so they wouldn't have to "work" In the East Village, where these big scary apartments now stand, was a German (Bavarian I suppose) church to him.....is that why his expression is "Ho ho ho!"???? my corny jokes.....

I wrote

again some strong stuff but I am genuinely endangered by her. She is a toxic person who is irrational and insane. This is not someone with any ethics or good will toward anyone; she is greedy, hateful and cruel. This person has inflicted a colossal amount of pain on me and others who are innocent. "you who are polluted with your lusts/stained with the guiltless blood of innocents" Shakespeare wrote. That she does, she taints and poisons everything she touches and her name alone is toxic. I want it and her forever gone from my life and don't want to see her anywhere, including attached to anything sacred and important to me. Too many times and she has gone too far.

Stuff to see in LA?

Whiskey a Go Go 

Church of Satan 

Intersection where Frances Farmer was arrested 

Jayne Mansfield house?

The last one a fascinating and heartbreaking story.....how "accidental" was her death? 

I was inspired by .....a couple summers ago....oh, well, summer 2009: a crazy crazy intense time of my life. The emotional toll of it made me lose 20 lbs not from dieting or drugs but.....? What was it? All the yoga I was doing? Deep breathing? I started taking Bikram Yoga but it was before....anyway. I had this little clock radio in my room, which was a basement, which got flooded...really disgusting I won't go into it. But. I was going to this event Hi! Christinas and ....my personal life. I was seeing someone who.....I got a call one night on my way to work that he was making out with some girl.....this was ....July 9, a Wednesday. The day of Michael Jackson's murder/death......I was reading some crazy literature and made genius art. Unfortunately, some was lost and some was not. No matter. I re-made the same thing from my head. So don't try to pass my stuff off as yours; you will only make a fool of yourself believe me. 

I was horribly distraught that day, of MJ's death. I wandered into a Buddhist temple on Canal St., a really beautiful place worth seeing to everyone. I got a fortune, from this kind of booth they have where you take one.....saying "You will become well-known." What they forgot to add was "Be careful what you wish for." That's a line in the Pussycat Dolls song "I Wanna be Famous" a rather grim and chilling one in the middle of an upbeat pop song.....anyway. 

I...did I write about this before? A dream that MJ told me to follow him and led me down to a basement....I thought I saw like a figure that looked .....well why write this ....ay.....probably no one will believe me.....but if you've ever seen out of the corner of your eye, something ....a figure appears and disappears. There are a lot of conspiracy stories on the Web I won't go into here. One that he faked his death. I watched this documentary. Fascinating stuff.....

but that summer....it was horrific at times and fabulous other times. I did some brilliant stuff that's only the beginning.....oh well that led to some stuff....another ....that would take a book.

Hey there! Who are you all?

I read the stats as to who's reading my site....people from all over the world it's amazing! I keep getting that people in places like Russia, China, UAE are reading my stuff.....

haunted toilet? Hunter library

At the bottom floor the toilet continues to flush itself....even though there's no one there. Every place has its own distinct thing......who says ghosts don't have a sense of humor?

SNL Great Day Digital Short360p H 264 AAC

  This is another....a friend of mine showed me this first I love it! For those curious about what coke does.....

RED FLAG

Love this.....

Got this email

....saying tomorrow is the "death moon." Which I've never heard of. But it would make sense.

I may have almost.....

 I went through something that nearly killed me...... Due to some issues. I wrote about them before. I wrote alot more that I didn't publish but will soon.


The political situation in America could be best expressed as dire. Of course these are my opinions, based on what I've observed. As for these "conservative" candidates discussing who is the worst is kind of redundant, they're all the worst. This is a full blown assault on human rights, animal rights.....human progress and life in general. It's really horrifying to me. They're promising a better world, but if they have their way we'll have the situation like in countries where 99 percent of the population is living in cardboard boxes with flies crawling all over them (that could have been me--horrors, it nearly was), and 1 of 1 percent, whatever it is, in a castle. That doesn't say much for civilization, does it? True, the Obama Administration is far from angelic. Good news? We have a wide range of delightful candidates to choose from. Kind of like, as one person wrote, the choice between 101% evil and 98.9989789% (or is that optimistic?) evil.

ok

Sigh. I can see now......after all the work I did, which was .......I can see now where maybe I impulsively, me being a fire sign! I plunged ahead without looking or ........and fell flat on my face. That happened a lot. But. I read that Balanchine had a particular fondness for dancers who fell because it showed they had extra energy or enthusiasm, which I have......but now I can see that ......how do I say?


The stuff I wrote was not nice.....shocking I suppose. First of all, I have to say that, what is far more deeply shocking is what I suffered at the hands of some people, among them, yes, this particular person who has been at best an annoying and physically and psychically draining presence to quite a few people, not just me. She is not the only one I didn't ever say she was. Yes, there were others. Yes, their intentions were hateful and malicious and deliberate. I am not ....I don't believe this I know this for a fact. It's been confirmed. Some are men and some are women, and no I'm not the only target. Unfortunately, not everything in this world is well intentioned. Why is there fighting......which can be to preserve something valuable and good as well as for other reasons. Someone.....when something really meaningful and great, something sacred and nearly untouchable, is at stake by people who are simply put, thieves and vultures, I'm just speaking plainly here......you know it's necessary to defend it. By ridding a situation and your life of what is harmful and malignant you are allowing the other thing to flourish. Someone, Venus S made a comment, so true brilliantly put....something to the effect that the harmful things are what create a void in your life and that is true for this situation believe me if ever it was for anything.

Again, she/it/they

are at it. They know who they are, if you are them, YOU know who you are. Stay away. And get away. Among others,  . I'll say nothing more here, other than I've told them all to stay away and I'm saying it again. Stay out of my life. Get out, stay out, never return. To whom I'm speaking, you know exactly who you are and don't try to pretend as it's a pathetic posture and nothing more. You're fooling no one and your act is old, and it's over. she is a horrible human being and a psychopathic beast. She is truly evil.......it's all confirmed to me by a number of sources what she is doing and what she did. I regret the day I ever met any of them. Good riddance forever. What a horrific and foolish mistake on my part, but then again, I didn't seek her out.Her or any of them. If I'd known, if I'd known.......and that ......friend of hers. Oh, yeah, I was naive as hell. I paid dearly for that. I admit.  After everything I went through, that she had a direct involvement in.....make no mistake, she knew what she was doing and did it deliberately, maliciously and willfully. It was NO accident. She also was not acting alone. I made my own mistakes I admit. But I am also talking about two different things. I just want to move on with my life......
Oh, a side note, there are those privy to her ways, and those working with her, who are keeping their mouths shut for whatever reason, it really doesn't matter. You know who you are, and you're as bad as she is. And you know what I'm talking about, too. And.....the truth will out, and out you to the world......so quit your act already. You've got it coming to you, and you know it. You've gone way too far and someone made the very dumb mistake of giving an insane person like you any power to do anything. Horrors indeed, that explains a lot doesn't it? Certainly irresponsible, and inexcusable as is your behavior.

Chefs d'ouvres.....

Story Source Here

Chris Brown, domestic abuser and alleged soul food cook..........This looks good and I love soul food. I miss having someone who will cook for me.....I had always been lucky enough to date guys who did that. Sigh. Not anymore. That should change.....   

Not that I want to date Chris Brown; I don't. 

winter blows

I hate it. Need to get out of this.

I'm working on new projects which are going well but it's taken its toll on me physically and I need to rest big time. I need .............. to just sleep for like a day. So hot you wake up sweating that's how I prefer it.

The Most Evil Women In History - Bloody Mary Tudor (part2/3)

WOW what people do in the name of faith and belief!

Whitney Houston

I read....saw a headline, maybe it was the Examiner, one of those.....she may have been murdered. Guess no one really knows the cause of death. But.....look at the statistics....prescription drugs were found by the crime scene.


Whitney Houston, prescription drugs
Michael Jackson, prescription drugs
Amy Winehouse, prescription drugs
Brittany Murphy, prescription drugs
Heath Ledger, prescription drugs
Marilyn Monroe, prescription drugs




A young woman died recently from the birth control pill Yaz. I know it's one death but others have been permanently disabled from it. This woman was previously healthy, and only 18 years old.


http://www.southerncrossreview.org/13/sacredcows.htm  




this is disturbing stuff, not the kind of thing I like reading. I could go on and on about this....and these drugs are legal, and declared "safe" by the FDA after "passing" tests......they are not safe. True, you could overdose on Clorox or jump off a building but it's far more likely people will overdose on prescription drugs. Too many people and animals.....by legion....are dying unnecessarily. That's ....I mean that's a huge understatement. This is murder, murder, murder, and murder. To those women in NOW who shot down the universal health care bill....shame on you and the blood of humans and animals dying from these barbaric, archaic and fraudulent tests by the pharmaceutical companies YOU defended, even though every single woman, without exception, that we spoke to at the conference supported universal health, is on your hands for standing by doing nothing when faced with this crisis. You know who you are. So congratulations as yes this is partly your doing. You are murderesses. I'm not going to mince words. Did these companies "contribute" to NOW? Some might call it a bribe. Sorry, but people like you are the worst of the worst, since you pretend to be what you are not. Even someone like Phyllis Schafly or Sarah Palin is straightforward about who they are......they don't pretend to be on the side of their victims. The truth has to out and it's not a pretty one. Mitt Romney is not pretending to stand up for women and animals. You have blood on your hands, blood on your hands that will never wash off.

St. Valentine

Actually the term "My Bloody Valentine" may be fitting since.....there were three of them but one was St. Valentine,  a priest martyred in Rome in 269 CE, buried in the Flaminian Way. He was marrying lovers when Roman Emperor Claudius II had banned marriage. Martyred meant off with your head back then. This was one of three and the facts are really disjointed. There was another St. Valentine in the late 2nd century, also beheaded. A third was martyred in Africa. The head of one of them, is preserved in abbey of New Minster, Winchester. Another head is on display in Rome. OH this gets complicated. Not sure which one that was. He also is associated with curing blindness and epilepsy; as he had cured the blind daughter of his jailer, so she could read letters from "your Valentine."  Love is severed heads. I think this is very beautiful and poignant. I would have a wedding there....

St. Valentines Day Massacre

Eeh. Maybe part of that very bad feeling I got this am......well I'll get the bad out first, then go on to the better part. The St. Valentines Day Massacre the pictures of the crime scene are online but I won't post them here......they are not very pretty. This happened in Lincoln Park, Chicago, an area that is now a very scenic, trendy one, I used to work there. It's also very densely populated......I'd thought this would have happened in an abandoned garage on the south side somewhere.....Chicago is a huge city and full of off the map out in the middle of nowhere places like that. That....no one would encounter. Strange, this day and location. Also part of the Some Like it Hot story; where Jack Lemmon and Tony Curtis' characters become unfortunate witnesses.....in an incident that decides their fate.....or if not that then well changes things.....

another MJ dream

This was a couple years ago....shortly after he died. I was.....in a house or something. Maybe like California. He was walking around....maybe it was a back yard or courtyard, not sure. He was beckoning me to follow him....he said something like, I'm down here. I followed....he lead me downstairs to a cellar of some kind. A cold one. I read a day or so later in the Enquirer .... I think.....that his body was being kept frozen in a morgue or basement......anyway. I mean. You know. It could be many things I know. Yes. Well that's what it was.

The Plaza Hotel is evil

Sorry no offense to anyone there, but it is. I.....you'd have to see it at night. Late. I was in that area around that time and....every window was black. I don't know what went on there. I know of people who stayed there that.....maybe the bad spirits, whatever you want to call it, of that place had something to do with what happened to them. I am not expecting people to take my word. So see for yourself. Go there in the wee hours some time and decide. If you dare. If you want to see it. You probably don't. All the horror films I saw....Amityville Horror, the Shining......it's those and more and I could just see blood coming out of every dark, dusty window of death in there. I started crying and turned away my whole body curled up....oh and this at the beginning of vday....

http://www.ghostsandstories.com/the-plaza-hotel-in-nyc.html 


Wow. Me, as someone who is ....how do I say? But something about.....you can never have it happen so many times that it never fazes you to experience another. Something about it just rattles you to the core. The above story.....my god. Read for yourself. This is really fascinating.



I had this really bizarre dream about ....that I was at a friend's house. A guy, who moved to Africa a year ago. I found these files in his apartment...turns out they were addressed to Michael Jackson. They were some kind of documents.....or checks for money, that translated into cash. $100 bills. And $1000....I was thinking.....I didn't know there were $1000 bills.......and I was walking around with the files, thinking I had this money, but what to do with it? Should I return it.....it's not going to do him any good now. It was daytime. In the city.

Madonna rips of ZZ Top?

 (whisper) you forgot the beard!

A fifty four year old groupie......go on, be an example for your 14 year old daughter!

 

Bikram Yoga

Gotta get back into this.......!

Sea Mirror

this the mirror

this the sea

all of them are me 

all of them are me 

I'm on ice 

I'm underwater 

I'm on ice 

I'm underwater 

I'm in a mirror 

something falls wet

I'm in a mirror 

something falls wet 

Sea is the mirror

mirror is the sea 

return to me to me to me 

meant to be that's mine 

meant to be that's mine 

meant to be that's mine 

Two Women Discover Hidden Cameras In Their Apartment

Invasion of privacy is real......be vigilant!

Two 14 yr old girls commit suicide after being bullied

There are so many videos like this....the worst is the hate crime against two goth kids. Part of the problem is people aren't taught the reality of having to fight in this world. There are some who aren't going to back down. Why does the US have an army? There are scud dirts out there whose intentions are not benevolent. I speak as someone who was bullied, too. For me it was harassment, verbal abuse (mostly by way of sarcasm) over my views and because I stood up for animals. I didn't wear make up to protest tests that were done. I didn't know then there were alternatives. Look for the record I LOVE make up and going to Sephora....Duane Reade buying the newest eyeshadow and you know all that stuff. I guess I wasn't, after 6th grade, physically assaulted. I used to get followed home and roughed up, mostly pushing shoving, by the hoody kids. For me it was "equal opportunity;" they came from all backgrounds; black, white, Hispanic, rich, poor, female, male, ect. Yeah, it was a level field. But the worst they did was shove me to the ground. I've been hearing stories, from guys but some women, of kids REALLY beating the crap out of them to the point where they had to go to the hospital and then....in one case, a guy's father told him to go retaliate, and he did. Actually, my aunt told me the same, and I did. The kid was crying after that......but he decided years later to get "revenge." It doesn't end. People told me time would heal things. Honestly, it hasn't. But I never EVER would have considered ending my life.....maybe like everyone I had thoughts but there was no reason to leave life. I can only....really imagine what these poor kids went through. I had people who kind of coached me, a few friends who were sympathetic, even if they didn't completely shield me....I had role models; I KNEW that they (bullies) were losers going nowhere in life and that I was getting away from them. But all you CAN do at the end of the day is get away. There are sociopaths/psychopaths/borderline there are a million categories but these people exist and they are so far incurable. These are people who don't recognize that other beings, human and non human, feel, love, fear, value things as much as they do. I mean, hey, there are people beating the crap out of their own kids, why would they care about anyone else? I mean, looking at the statistics, which would have to be verified....it just goes on and on. All you can do is get away.....but in school that option isn't there. Maybe, if their parents aren't handling it right.....kids feel like they have no where to go, no one to turn to, that life is closing in on them. No one should ever be made to feel that way. It's a long battle but a lot has to get done about this. I don't know what the parents did or didn't do and I am NOT saying it's their fault.....although I do believe that schools and teachers were negligent. I know many times they are.....they see what is happening and do nothing to stop it. That does, frankly, happen. Maybe all the schoolyard bullies go into education so they can relive their glory years.....lol......that was sarcasm. But I would have to tell all parents tell your kids to tell you if something is happening IMMEDIATELY do not, kids, NOT say anything ever. You must let it be known so people can help you. If someone is touching you in a way you don't want them to, pressuring you to do something you don't want to, saying things to you that are upsetting, ect whatever it is tell someone so you can get help. Too many cases of this have ended tragically there need to be crisis centers like there are for rape and stalking victims.It's a mistake in American culture to think that people should be strong and able to shrug off what is coming their way, to make it completely ON THEIR OWN. No one, no human alive or dead, has ever EVER done that. Anyone who has gotten anywhere or done anything has gotten help. People NEED help......if they're in circumstances that are so traumatic that they're not livable where they are victims of what amounts to criminal activity; because this is under the law stalking, harassment, assault, terroristic threats, invasion of privacy there are many names but it is NOT legal to "bully" period......and the psychological damage is real and devastating. The same way for sexual harassment, rape, stalking it's an uphill battle first of all for it to be recognized.......but people subjected to repeated trauma are going to react. Blame the perpetrators not the victims. You're going to tell them now, after they're dead at 14, they should have toughed it out? Well, they didn't. I'm glad this subject is being dealt with....at least now with the internet there's more information more available. There needs to be more......

BANNED YouTube Video

STAND UP FOR FREE SPEECH!!!! AMERICA

dance, cheers, sun

 Apollo, Ancient Greek Sun and Arts God

 Bay Laurel

The sun, varying light spectra. And the cheerleaders.....ever look at a pic of yourself and go "aaahhhhh!"?

CL grievances, the list goes on and on

http://www.consumeraffairs.com/online/craigslist.html


really this is ..................... WHAT can be done about this, and how soon????????????????????

Craigslist harassment and discrimination

No names but my suspicions .....maybe the police, the FBI, maybe the serial killer who's murdered several young women in Long Island and who is still walking free.......

here is one of the Neo Nazi posts.....it's only this guy (I assume it's a guy)

Nig History There really is none.

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Date: 2012-02-04, 1:16PM EST
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Still not one word of Mandingo History before Europeans gifted them with civilization.

No Bach, no books, no anything of value or beauty. It's funny how a beaver can build a dam that shows a higher level of thought and skill than any Pre European Influence Mandingo structure. But we don't let beavers vote.

Why is this? The fact is science has never considered the negro a human. It was the Church and its irrational ways that attempted to humanize the Negro. How well did they succeed? Watch tonight's news.

on the same note, he wants the white kids out.

Hipster transplants

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Is there any way we could send these phony losers back to their home states. The homeboys should beat and rape them since they are pushing them out. The phony clowns dont like to live in white areas for fear of being called a racist or maybe because its not trendy enough. They ride old bikes and wear track jackets with BROOKLYN emblazoned everywhere. These pathetic losers need to be sent packing. They have destroyed the fiber of ny.




Shut up, you idiot. We ARE the fiber of NYC, us "hipsters" who are artists.  I'm talking about those of us who are the real deal (sure, there are a lot of poseurs out there, but not all of us). You wouldn't know what the "fiber of NY" is (because actually it is and always has been "hipsters" actually) if it fell on you. But what am I doing? It's futile, cause you can't argue with crazy people. As for "moving into black neighborhoods" gee, why is that? It's not hard to figure out. Why indeed do the punk kids move into "black" neighborhoods? Well, think about it. Think real hard. Hard. Oh, but that's supposed to be irrelevant. Actually, more like the Chinese "communist" areas. Think about THAT. The SAME real estate for 1/20th as much. What would you do? Pay the market rate? Sure you would. That's why you're so fond of outsourcing to India. You  hypocrite. Grrr. Oooooooohhhhhhhhhh. My cruel side is coming out......you asked for it.

Here is a site where many people have posted their grievances with CL 

http://www.consumeraffairs.com/online/craigslist.html

This is unacceptable. Too many people all over the world have used CL successfully for all kinds of things and the majority of them are regular working people who need to make extra money. This site, five or six years ago, was excellent extremely resourceful. I am one of millions of people who was greatly, greatly aided by it....it opened up a lot of doors and opportunities for me . Now, these fuckheads have ruined it. This is not tolerable. They cannot get away with this. This is unacceptable. Maybe it's harassment by the police, I'm sure much of it is. Dirt fuckers. Or rivals whatever. Whoever is doing it, has no right to cause harm like this to innocent people. I'm ....I have a very good feeling that the individual committing massive murders in Long Island is also responsible, directly or indirectly, for what is happening. I'm one of many people who have been unfairly harassed and my accounts fucked with and no way am I going to let someone do this to me. OOH. OOOOHHHH. No. This must end. This site is getting a bad reputation in the news and unfairly, due to what amounts to relatively rare incidents (I mean involving violence between people who connect on the site). Honestly. Millions of transactions take place on this site every day but it only takes one thing.....I have contacted the staff innumerable times and gotten no response. This is absolutely harassment....whoever is doing it must be stopped. It's gone on too long and......there's well I won't say the rest. No one should be allowed to cause problems like this to innocent people and if you cause problems for one person there are others being affected too. This must be stopped. This person must be stopped. Anyone?

sea mirror again.....getting this!

  Hey hey 's been forever since I've written but I am now.......help me more to come!


this is the sea, this is a mirror 
all of them are me
all of them are me



I'm  on  ice 
I'm under water
I'm on ice
I'm under water


I'm in a mirror
something falls wet, I'm 
in a mirror, something falls wet 
I'm in a mirror, something falls wet






sea is the mirror 
mirror is the sea 
return what's lost to me 


sea is the mirror 
mirror is the sea 
return what's lost to me



it's meant to be that's mine
meant to be that's mine
meant to be that's mine 
you want it you grab it 
you want it it's yours 
it it's yours

Fargo: Kidnapping Scene (& more)

God this scene is incredibly disturbing but crazy I was dying watching this .....

Bad Santa - Reindeers

Billy Bob Thornton is so awesome.....!DD..... this is one of the films, along with equally hilarious Griswold Family Xmas this xmas......

10 months pregnant & using the pole

I feel better seeing this it can be done.....!

Pennies @ Under St Marks did my act!

A crazy day full of several blunders (mine) and general craziness in a lot of different places...... .........! but anyway, this material I worked so hard on I finally did it! Got my music finally......


So after the show I was walking on first avenue, I overheard this girl saying something like, the stuff performed tonight was "weird"......I was really thrown off by this at first. But I can take it as a back handed compliment now.....I mean if she'd said it was "bad" or "boring" that would not be good. But the fact that she thought it was "weird" shows it got her attention, got her confused...and thinking. So she wasn't bored. So I and others must have done something right..............

Devo - Girl U Want

This is another record my father randomly had when he lived in Chicago.....the summer I visited him I had some skater friends who introduced me and next thing I knew there was a crazy out of control party at Dad's apartment.....guys jumping through the kitchen window.....anyway. I mean, we were teenagers.

Speaking of, I dreamt of Dad last night....that I was in Chicago visiting....and we were driving a pickup truck. I got in the driver's seat (and I never drive, my license is pretty much a bad picture and that's it) and was driving....then I remembered I had a performance in NYC I had to get back for. We're going through customs in the airport. I get on the plane, back to NYC. I go into the theater where the show is going on....there are many female dancers in like sequined outfits. One of them, wearing red, with black hair (maybe cause I was reading Anne Sexton's Snow White poem) is telling me, "Get in the kitchen!" I'm not dressed to perform. They all go on stage....this was a really vivid one. I slept again for like 12 hours....making up for what I lacked before. Now, I need to memorize my poems and do ..........

Level 42 - Lessons In Love

I used to watch this band as a kiddie kid these were like 80s uber cool

Sea Mirror

  Hey hey 's been forever since I've written but I am now.......help me more to come!


this is the sea, this is a mirror 
all of them are me
all of them are me



I'm  on  ice 
I'm under water
I'm on ice
I'm under water

I'm in a mirror
something falls wet, I'm 
in a mirror, something falls wet 
I'm in a mirror, something falls wet




sea is the mirror 
mirror is the sea 
return what's lost to me 


sea is the mirror 
mirror is the sea 
return what's lost to me


it's meant to be that's mine
meant to be that's mine
meant to be that's mine 
you want it you grab it 
you want it it's yours 
it it's yours

writing earthquake

Just as I was in hell and high water and freaking out over a .....cyberstalker......the earthquake in Indonesia happened. 7.3 magnitude. That place really gets hit bad. it's an archipelago......all broken up. It's all that......"bad energy" is such a cliche.....or "evil" whatever you want to call it. Or maybe just destruction. Murder. I was watching the Kill Bill scene...Daryl Hannah calling  Black Mamba "death incarnate." Got the death card twice in the tarot. Had a horrid emotional moment. Saw that word. That name. That picture. Maybe she is death incarnate. Sorry that's harsh but what am I supposed to think? As someone who is ......I won't say "bad"  or "evil" even though that exists....I'll say "not benevolent" or "destructive" or........? Call it what you will. The same thing happened about six years ago. Seven years ago. I was at midnight mass, xmas eve, they sane "Silent Night" turned out the lights, lit candles....I got in an argument, went home to brooklyn, woke up the next morning and the tsunami hit.

But anyway. This is not good.

thank you