A star is is sent into space a random place but no can't be

Love. I'm turning into an emoji addict but this site is for writing. Snow sparkle starlight on white glimmer cold and fuck this I want a sunny warm Christmas never before had one. Coming from where I do it snows end of year something whispered in my ear then disappears.....😇😴Share Gif: http://media.riffsy.com/images/eafbf862b35875d7c306cdbb4702d2d1/raw
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shake shake rain rain dust silver gold silver [sort of kind of not really or not at all or (?)] Election Day

Fuck [the electoral college ] Millenium KLF




click above don't know why this link isn't working but (arrow up)  "Fuck the [Electoral College] Millenium by KLF

Eva Senín Pernas ‏@ESPhotoMakeup 22 Jan 2015

Colour Chaos @makeup_rev (Tones:Over-bored/Needed To/Me Three/Beyond Real/Calm me down/TipX) #evaseninpernas #MUA

"good go into the pot, bad go into the crop" "die guten ins Töpfchen, die schlechten ins Kröpfchen"

Grimm's Fairy Tales aka Brüder Grimm= "It's Grim Up North" (KLF) I know I keep referencing this. I don't need to go into why. Recount is a right, not a privilege. We deserve to know. Enough said. I have to say my German is pretty splotchy but this site has a good translation. I know enough to understand the original. I love the way it's written the poetry. It's.....German and Scandinavian poetry is very chant-like it sticks in your head once you have it.

 http://alexandradawe.deviantart.com/art/Cinderella-112092462


 





This artist is  Eva Senín Pernas ‏@ESPhotoMakeup 31 May 2015

#velvetcoruña #coruña #eventoscoruña #maquillajecoruña #maquillaje #evaseninpernas #esphotomakeup from Spain

"der Schuck ist zu klein,
die rechte Braut sitzt noch daheim"


"shoe's too tight/bride [groom]'s not right"

" rüttel dich und schüttel dich, wirf Gold und Silber über mich."

shake shake rain silver rain gold

"Shake quiver little tree rain gold silver over me"


my own words:


for this thing I gave him everything
for this thing I gave him everything 

Halloween was crazy tumultuous and bizarre

Itself like a pulp horror film. I was supposed to see my friend in queens something came up ended up on the train from Rockaway I have had some bizarre experiences there but I think this night the dead did rise. I had been reading about Michael Jackson then I looked up and there was a bum, Heaven help these people, this guy was in tattered rags with a goatee and was like African Caribbean from Puerto Rico he later told me, speaking Spanish. I joked to someone next to me he looked like he had stepped off the set of Thriller and he did. Like one of the dancing ghouls. There was a girl with Gothic makeup shed have fit right in on 8th st not too long ago. Then in Brooklyn these women also with ghoul face paint. I couldn't help feel like yes it's Halloween but it's like a dream or other dimension or something like the spirits of the dead are out and have possessed people or else my night. Or I had visited a church earlier and a cemetery and maybe it's

Travolta SNF and The Shirt

https://youtu.be/LnqWQnbvjuQ

Apologies as my stuff isn't uploading right but anyhow I've seen Saturday Night Fever infintismal times. I begged my parents for disco and new wave music and to take me to see this which they revived all the time including at drive ins in Chicago, tho those always creeped me out. One time she took me to see the non G-rated version oops she covered my eyes in the stripper scene lol I think our friend Bruce (RIP) was with us. She did the same with my little sister when she was about 8 or so and we were watching The Last Picture Show.    The swimming scene came on and she told her "You can't watch this part" my sister started crying. But anyway I'm totally obsessed with the 70s and disco currently so found this clip of JT and its occurring to me now shit he was hot here in cette film.....kick ass direction from John Badham here😍😇😘 helps.!

Triste. . speakeasies .. bushwick? harlem

I'm all over the place with this.....

I was told my ggma was a " rum runner" a la Joseph Kennedy
Irish too "O Connor".....

Years ago my bf at the time I have to thank him he took me to some wild parties one was an illegal rave that got raided that was scary too! He had a joint with him that he strategically discarded before anyone saw it. How did he do that?

It's a secret in the woods a secret in the city it's in the shadows can see in moonlight at night you don't see it now it's a light it's visible  it's the other side of everything a secret hidden from you triste triste where is he a triste triste where is he it's a secret hidden from you a secret a secret you don't know about this thing you that don't know about the moons sliver it's silver I gave him everything for this thing it's a secret a secret it's in the woods I gave him everything for this thing I gave him everything

Well well something I wrote a few months ago

THAT thing. New light has been shed on that subject and all is not what it seemed.....this surrounds me all the time like gauze and always my mind goes back to it. I say I don't want trouble or conflict but the way things happen I throw myself out there on the front lines having to deal with what comes of that. It turned me inside out that plus encountering the great and the horrific both. I go I go it's a risk I have to take.....

Changing title again why am I stuck on this .....?

I'm thinking of them
Dreaming of him
A dinner date over there I'd break
He willed me there pulled my hair
A message sent a day later.....
Up here it's cold at the end of the year what was in my ear then disappeared
Up here it snows the end of the year
What's in my ear then disappeared
New York London Chicago all in the north (ok some inspiration from KLF) I was a prisoner in all tortured then freed
Falling for him thinking of them
A dinner date another day then I'd break
Up here it snows end of year what's in my ear then disappears

The beginnings of new stuff inspired by... this new song Giorgio Moroder did rewriting the words not saying which that man is so Coolio I'd have given him the Nobel prize if I were to decide  .....I missed this thing in bk but all is gotten back sort of I found another event a gay bar they were playing Donna Summer. I asked if they'd be open Halloween they said yes it's a gay bar then laughed at me..  point being this has been nagging at me nonstop)

This second part went a lot longer than I intended so putting some space......

I wrote a lot lot on a certain issue that's been making its way through the news. This has rattled me really and my feelings on this are all over the place. Let me say, and I speak as plainly and gratefully as possible; the essential question is did they fact check? What Fox news says about fair and balanced you know they do take this seriously or are supposed to. Any publication or medium that does NOT verify check and cross check with ALL sources, that is all, not a few, not one or two but everything and everyone.....is a waste of time and basically a sham. If what you're reading is slanted in any way or leaving out stuff that is important or that clarifies, it's not worth reading. It's easy to distort the truth and sadly it's commonplace, the result being a lot of people misinformed and drawing conclusions based on that. Obviously highly unethical. OK. Digression but this is tied into what I wrote here. I thought my teaser was kind of cheesy and was going to change it but shortly after the whole "nasty woman" thing was viral. I was called nasty by another woman (she hasn't seen anything yet lol) but a moot point.....I am just me and what this person says is a product of her deranged mind. However, it was very chilling all this occurring at the same time but ultimately I was talking partly of taking back ones identity and finding your power but anyway.....
but basically make sure what you are putting out there is truthful and objective, and accurate, is related to how a news medium values fact checking and whether or not they do it thoroughly. That is actually getting your facts right so you don't "accidentally" attribute a series of statements to the wrong person how the fuck did that happen, Glamour UK? How did what I say get falsely attributed to Cherie? Maybe since I was quoted verbatim make sure this is verified by the person who actually said it as no one contacted me and Cherie was the media contact.....and how did she get that title? Either they fact checked or they didn't not to mention quote people saying things they never said. If your point was to write about Cherie use her words not mine. Totally inexcusable. And how did this happen?
Ok I said my piece. Digression and sorry for the rant my point is not to peck at people but it's all very disturbing to me.

Dia de los muertos

So much Latin and Caribbean culture I love you don't have to win me over I'm there! I am honored by my own heritage but I am fascinated by the way Mexicans venerate their dead and the way it's a part of every day life. And I now have a cloud, thanks to John Digweed. I was on the verge of implosion with hay fever or something. After endless orange juice motrins acetaminophen b vitamins and trying to sleep but mainly HEAT I'm recovering thankfully.

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Draft

Nearly died was so sick. My only salvation was plugging up all open spaces and keeping out the draft that plus pollen ......I need heat and no draft or I get sick. That plus twice the dosage of cold medicine. So it's the holiday Yom Kippur interesting not my religion but friends of mine were observing this and atoning.....I don't know if this is universal in a way but I woke earlier after the medicine had worn off disoriented and in a half dream half waking state and current events strangling me shaking me although i want to shut it all out I can't.

I am horrified

Utterly shameful, utterly disgraceful. Police have abused this situation. No defense.

https://www.google.com/amp/thenextweb.com/us/2016/10/12/aclu-us-police-tracked-protesters-using-data-from-facebook-instagram-and-twitter/%3famp=1

Hopefully this works

Check out this blog "Global warming? " http://lauralauras.blogspot.com/2016/10/global-warming.html

Global warming?

It's October and still hot. I feel the sun on my face like an stove and am hot in long sleeves. Thinking about mundane stuff I have to take care of the other side of everything paperwork, drudgery and a morbid feeling in my stomach. My advice is do not order with USPS as two packages of mine have gone missing with them with no response when I filed a claim. That one of their employees was caught doing a bunch of fucked up stuff is not surprising but I used UPS and got what I ordered.
If I've been absent from blogging it's because I switched phones and finally redownloaded everything. Anyway.....
Have not watched the debates. I only overheard part of them. Hillary has sass what can I say? I like her as far as this American system of choosing between two people goes (register to vote? Oh yes Clinton St) for all that people have trashed her I am impressed with her savvy and sharp statements and use of words if she has a louse for a husband well you know whatever.....wish it'd been her ten twelve years ago rather than Kerry who I'm sorry had the appeal of dry toast.

Long time but here I am

Four months! Way too long. Part of the reason is I switched phones and couldn't download the software and a lot of bs. So I moved up to 103rd st and have been working on new material of my own which left me physically and emotionally exhausted, in a good way but still. Also in a moment of fear I was dissatisfied with everything I'd written. I realized every inane comment I made on youtube or elsewhere stayed where it was and there I was.....officially out in the world with my name and picture.....same goes for anything I say about anyone. I have been through quite a few ups and downs here but getting going. Also I wrote far more privately on things happening which I have a connection to I found out later. Four months is record time for me and I should have been on it so here I am making up for it. But being that I know I'm good great and everything else what I had I felt was not right. Some was plain bad, what I wrote, but I put it down as it was happening.
I felt I should write it by hand but I'm so used to just typing from my phone. The issue with that is privacy as there are so many stories I've read about hacking spying make no mistake this is real.....and for many years though the law was plainly written for anyone to see very little was done to stop this. Always there was that oozy feeling creeping under my skin that I'm being watched and it turned out to be not merely my paranoia. Ten years ago I won't sugar coat it a few madmen and women were given power and access they never should have been and at times the worst were on top. I naturally function best at night and being extra sensitive to light, noise I get dizzy and confused very easily. Now I'm looking at so many directions I want to take and trying to decide and scheduling has never been my strong suit. List making is my nemesis or weakness I admit, and a lot of the time sent me into a panic! So this had me easily swept up in a frenzy and shit somehow I survived this and in the middle of a tornado found something to hold onto, even of I don't know what it is. Plus the fact that so much of what occurred was not explained nor was it ever made clear why and you know from my perspective I had to question certain people. All I wanted was answers to my questions and the truth I am not asking for really anything else but there were none. Even "yes I did this and fuck you" would have been OK with me and I have a lot more respect for that than no response at all as at least that would have been honest. But because there was always a blank and nothing which is telling that something is a secret which implies that it's being covered up. I am not an IT person for all that my father was a programmer I always found computers confusing and tedious. If I'm not sophisticated in one area I am also not dumb and intuitively I can sense something even if it's not clearly defined. My point is recently I confronted someone who was copying what I did on Instagram which either it was.....I mean if stuff they post is bizarrely similar to what you just did once, twice maybe three times it can be chalked up to coincidence. If it's occurring every other day for several months most likely it's not, I mean it just isn't. For the life of me I don't understand why someone would do that but such was the state of things.....totally irrational and outside the fundamental laws of what is normal or would make any sense. And I read up on this stuff from other people who went through this to know what I sense is actually happening. So I wasn't just trying to be mean when I made the decision to sever ties with certain people it's for all the reasons I just stated.
If I am wrong, fine. I'll accept being wrong whatever is the explanation or the truth I'll accept but instead of being proven wrong through the years the opposite occurred I was actually proven right. For all that I've been in therapy and I'm not gonna lie my family has had lots of problems but I was not prepared for .....It's hard to say this. If there is such a thing as ego, super ego, I'd, the part of your brain that holds one back from completely acting out one's impulses, these were people who did not have any .....If it's called outrageous conduct in a civilized society that's vague but I suppose it would have to go a very long way before it gets there.  But societies that are built on prejudice, oppression and injustice have always been the most primitive and backward and evolution of human beings and society comes with tolerance and compassion always. And I at least know someone can snoop in on my browsing activities now I feel like throwing up. Garrett was right I have to say even of he was wrong about other stuff I was careless and sloppy and it bit me in the ass in horrid ways God how did I survive that? So if someone is peeking in on the pages I visit they certainly know where my focus is but they had no right to do that. I'm really pissed actually. People who want to call me something what are they doing? The society we are in just feels so lawless. Someone like me is in a lot of people's perception a victim or rather a target. Garrett wrote me that nasty angry email about how I perceive I'm a victim it's a real insult and not true. I WAS a victim at times I don't say that because I want a pity party for that matter I was a victim of him. I am not saying this because I want to dump the blame on someone else or because I want to wallow that is  .....I can see how it appears that way maybe but it is not true. The people who say this kind of stuff are talking out their ass. Quite frankly. I know full well how some people abuse a situation and so on but who is anyone to o chastise another person like they are morally superior? Especially people who have said this stuff. I mean if you want to insult me go ahead but what is talk anyway? It's nothing. Bottom line I am not nor have I ever seeking to evade responsibility. What it comes down to is power and who has it, who is determined to keep it. I merely wished to be left alone to do my thing and when that happened I sought answers as I have every right to as anyone would. My generation grew up at the end of a bayonet all we ever knew was threats. That does not a content human being or happy society make.

Prince Controversy

https://www.google.com/search?q=prince+booed+at+rolling+stones+concert&safe=off&client=ms-android-virgin-us&prmd=nvi&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjFqIf4-dHMAhXJSyYKHd81Bk0Q_AUICSgD&biw=360&bih=559#safe=off&tbm=isch&q=prince+controversy&imgrc=OJf09XQhoksbCM%3A

Sleeping. Dreams.

Crazy stuff, and scary. Random man, eyes fuzzy.....the Hamptons on fire and I'm running to my mom's house, get to the door and knock, no phone, my sister lets me in. Then a pond lake with dinosaurs, one with a horn, saying somethibg, hearing something. Afghanistan and a little shop of some kind, men talking, must be the news or something. Walking through the woods. Freud's interpretation? Realizing I am drawn to scenes recreating my past, what I know and grew up with.

Jodi Arias blog

Jodi Arias is innocent and she is an amazing writer.....
This is the real JAA. She's a wonderful girl, and yes, even the detectives interviewing her said so. Super smart. Free Jodi Ann! :-)

http://jodiarias.blogspot.com/?m=0

Been forever

I was in Harlem passing Apollo theater saw bright lights Prince's music figured it was a concert......wow. I'm haunted by his leaving. Kind of cheesy but I had dinner at the Odeon last night, which is where I spent NYE 1999. Ok my experience with TAFKAP is I was a kid visiting my father in Chicago. His neighbor was a record promoter and my dad got boxfuls of promotional albums. One of them was Prince Controversy. (I spelled that right). I saw a pull-out of him in lace underwear his pubes showing and everything. His voice was so high it sounded girlish. At the time it was freaky to me like I'd never really seen this before, from a man. I also read he'd been booed offstage.....he wouldn't get famous for a few years. Hope you're in a better place, Mr. Nelson. My ex bf is also Jehovah's witness.

winter, nyc and some jersey

with a massive headache sorry Liverpool for not knowing exactly where you are I tried looking it up all I got was the football team. 

here are some highlights from winter here the beautiful for which I'm thankful amidst all the not so beautiful. January, thanks to Michael Fisherman at Prince George, among other people, was, to put it nicely, trying. Anyway, I'm over it. Voila! Nice stuff I think. 

Also some kitchen from Hell's Kitchen, deli cat, cute neighbor's dog.

the guy with the pink glasses asked me an annoying question so I stopped talking to him but this photo I have to mark this one it's too crazy.....

love nyc but dying to go somewhere at least for a bit but where?

Jayne Casey and Bill Drummond 

Liverpool, London, Scotland


Some online articles I was reading made me remember London where I'd love to return only drawback being the weather as I don't take well to the cold. Liverpool? Where is that, anyway? In the UK somewhere.....but where so much has been happening past and present, like see above. When I was in London my favorite place to eat was a little divey Indian restaurant in Kings Cross where this very sweet lady pretty much ran the place, this and stuff I discovered on my own if I'd done things differently better but there was just not enough time; even being held hostage in a near kidnapping with my father on the phone in Indianapolis. They had pretty decent vegetarian stuff. I have to say, the Indian food here in NYC is great. On every corner there is something from anywhere, really. So, you know, for all that I say if I could go somewhere in a time machine a few places would be Ancient Egypt or Greece, NYC in the 70s or 60s or France ca. 1700s London Bloomsbury (really loved it there) late 1800s though women weren't even allowed in libraries there's something to be said for cell phones and GPS.....and being allowed in the NYPL or the London equivalent.