Pink Floyd - The Dark Side of The Rainbow Part 3.avi

Been on a PF trip this is so brilliant man.......

Felix Da Housecat - Happy Hour

Strange how this happens....found this looking for something else fucking brilliant love it

writing, old and new

From some stuff written a couple years ago.....added some new last night 

He's trying to drive me crazy 

or maybe I'm just lazy 

what is it 

what is it I want 

what is it I forgot 

mystic or could be spastic

must have forgotten it

oh lazy days 

sun's rays 

and I know I know 

it was you back then 

how do I know 

summer will come 

again again 

will come and with it the sun 

so is the room I'm in 

in pain and shaking 

I'm dizzy and jerky 

frozen fish and streets 

barbara streisand?

jokes my parents 

hippest part of detroit dream

wanting that back or 

will I freeze and dry be useless

or a fur baby? 

monkeys entertaining, people wearing them 

sleds and deer as stars stars 

like nothing I wrote 

like nothing I could say 

so close and far away 

no sword can sever 

though it nearly did 

grey street and dark 

but out comes sun and summer

that is bright too 

that lawn could be so green 

and I am so mean 

the food was rich 

I know I'm a bitch sometimes 

summer summer 

is here will last 

til the waves run back 

they come in and bring with them the sun 

he was cute cuter than me

I Can Transform Ya

Normally, rap isn't my thing. I kind of thought Chris Brown as a manufactured image....industry people putting him together. But this kind of made me look twice I don't know.....anyway......

Shakira - Rabiosa (Spanish Version) ft. El Cata

First time I ever heard or saw this video but I remember reading about Shakira working on pole dancing......pretty cool!

slept

about 12 hours blew off a bunch of people.....they are mad hopefully they'll get over it. In terms of the bigger picture, I can accomplish more when I'm not falling over with exhaustion.
But I feel like a newborn and my skin as soft......

pix from a couple summers ago

Broome St. Very rocky (and raunchy sometimes) experience there. Some great stuff and some horrible stuff all on that same block. Where Heath Ledger died. Someone else a woman was stabbed. I'm sure more happened. I did meet some very special people. There were more people to the story than just me but I won't post their pictures without permission.

facebook post

God I'm such a whiner. I'm back on FB. ()

place, decorations, dancing

 it's .......man what words? It's so brilliantly decorated, Mardi Gras style.....masks and the theme of red or maroon. There I learned to dance on a pole and oh was terrified the first time I went upside down. The trick is.....you have to have exactly the right timing. Too much, too late it becomes overdone, maudlin. Very simple. That's the tricky part.

I hate Facebook

You won't see me on there much any more. It's mean and awful. I don't need certain things flaunted in front of me.

Susan Atkins (1976) Interview-Part 1

one amazing story these girls are .....i know what people will think. but they're not the people they are depicted as in the press and media......their story is one of survival of total hell. NOT to diminish the gravity of the crimes or to not sympathize with those killed. But she and Leslie, Pat I don't know about, really didn't kill anyone. They shouldn't have been where they were for so long.....

lightheaded

by my own doing I woke up and drank 2 liters of mountain dew and couldn't resist, my sweet tooth what it is....the $1.09 special of movie-sized junior mints at Wallgreens, and then my favorite, candy corn, albeit out of season. 

some good things happened, some horrible things happened. 

So now the sugar is buzzing in my head. But boy did I miss it for 2 days. 

I woke up and started making a list. Copying drafts of other lists. These things are daunting. What do I want? What do I want to do? Me being the ADD case of the universe listed 1,000 things in about ten minutes....then AAGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!! Need to do this and this and this and this and this and this

I had this dream that a friend was meeting me for a party in a school auditorium. It was all grey though. I dream about my high school a lot, except that it's empty and only security guards are there.

So high on my TO DO priorities:

dancing

writing 

book? 

acting 

getting on a tv series 

costumes 

yoga blog 

therapy 

dentist

eye doctor 

apt search and find 

dance pole 

cats 

Speaking of which, I ran yesterday up to harlem. Had to go up there for something so I figured I'd kill two birds with one stone. Took me 45 minutes to get up to 116th st. It's so nice up there! Being up there really lifts my spirits. There's Whole Foods, which I actually like a lot. They have everything, man. Really nice oils and candles.....I do go in for all that hippie New Age stuff. They...the Starbucks was sampling this awesome like cappuccino chocolate rock candy the best whoever invented that I love you. Then I went into Sephora......I think this was after I discovered this playground which had, incidentally, a pole. I started kind of practicing on it. I did my dance exercises....why I am so stiff always I don't know. By the time I was done, my legs were shooting fatigue. My hands, fingernails....all of me was filthy. I went into Whole Foods then, used the bathroom where I washed my hands and armpits. Then I went into Sephora and put this exquisite hand scrub, like peach scented, on my hands for my nails. Painted my nails in their Mermaid color. They looked great on me! Then used some of their Murad face wash. Left. Somehow walked back to my gym where I showered. I went to my school library....put my head down for a nap and woke up several hours later........I was that tired. I had no energy to perform that night.

All because the other thing that may have killed me. But I'm still too young to die. Especially over people who don't matter, who won't in the end. So I have to dig my way out of a grave. And I did.
I remembered this dance class I took in school....the teacher, an older female, was telling the boys to get a dance belt said it would "hold them like steel."

Ali G In Da House Whole Movie (English) Part 1 HD

I know this is a bootlegged copy but if I can find the film on netflix what have you....this is so brilliant I watch this whenever I need comic relief....fucking awesome. so go out or online and get the film!

tarot

I wrote "tart" first Freudian slip? Got seven of swords reversed. Interpretations here and here

Happy Father's Day

Dad we all miss you! Love always

KLF - The Rites Of Mu

God this is genius....even if a somewhat 2001 rip off.....you don't have to be "high" to get it all but maybe meditating.....

Simple Minds - Alive And Kicking

Red hot ..... This band was and is the bestest of the the bestest...... it had been a while since I'd thought of them or listened to them but.....well....hm. One thing led to another to this again.....and well. There's more. A lot.

dreams

haven't been home in a couple days. slept at a friend's place on the ues...yorktown. this apartment is so quiet and .....man how do I describe it? almost feel like I'm on a submarine when I'm in there. wood beams on the ceiling. He has a photo of a singer named Nick Drake, who had committed suicide some time in the 60s. Swords and knives on the wall. My dad also had a sword on his, in a basement of the place he lived in in Chicago.

I had half a glass of wine and just plopped down. The dreams I was having! My God. First that I was in the Hamptons, at Madonna's make-shift house while she waits for a house. She had this kind of magical swimming pool. It was like two big rooms, in a house. Then her new one. Like white and flat. 

Then I was with my mother and sister. My sister was eating a tuna sandwich and my mother was asking her to do something she kept refusing. Someone said the Bush Administration made you this way. I started eating the tuna even though I hate that stuff, and all fish. Then I went out to get Indian food. I had a boyfriend in the dream.....(?) and was trying to communicate something....quirreling.....some kind of room with a cot in it. It just went on like that.....

audition and pix

the pictures came out great and so is the color! I was one of the last to audition, and did a monologue of the fool in king lear. these other actresses auditioning were great and all in all it was quite inspiring

I was really bummed thinking I'd missed an audition but.....turns out I didn't! great.....I'd been through the hell of mid-town Manhattan looking for a non-existent printing place that turned out wasn't open.....all this crap. But I found a place that is and auditioning tomorrow so bless....!